Stashing

A good friend asked me recently “So what IS it that makes filling my closet with boxes of yarn so happy-making?”

And I wanted to contemplate that for a bit.  What is it, particularly, in me that makes me stash yarn?  I have seen stashes far worse than mine, I know my stash is not terribly large.  If I stopped buying yarn for a year I could knit an entire year on what I have.  Probably not more than that though.  So it isn’t a huge stash, I know people who won’t knit their stash in their lifetime.

I have coping mechanisms with my stash.  I keep it somewhere I can see, and I pull it all forward on the racks I have it on because I want it to look larger than it is, so that I am less tempted to add to it.

When I began to spin that opened a whole new stash buying opportunity, but that one isn’t growing the way the yarn stash does.  I have come to the realization that knitting is my first love and spinning is a secondary means to my knitting addiction.  So I am well aware that I don’t spin as fast as I could and don’t spend the time on it that I might like.  I am not at all having trouble with buying too much fiber.

Most of my yarn stash has specific projects in mind.  I don’t buy it just to have it, but buy it because I truly have something I want to make out of it.  I have the proper yardage for the project and I do intend to knit them up.  I knit fast and they rarely deviate from their intended purpose.  The exception to this is my laceweight stash.

I love knitting, but my addiction to lace surpasses all other knitting addictions.  I currently do have a few laceweight yarns in my stash that do not have specific projects associated with them.  That being said, most lace takes about the same yardage and when a lace knit along pops up, I can just grab from my stash and be ready to go.

But all of this talk about my stash is really just avoidance for the real question.  Why do I stash?

I think there are two main reasons coming into play here.  There could be more, but I think these are the major ones.

I have heard tell that one often doesn’t give up an addiction, but rather replaces it with another one.  I was often loath to admit that I might possibly be addicted to food, but I probably was.  Not so much in the sense that I ate when I was emotional about something, but that certain foods tasted good to me so I ate too much of them.  Upon losing a good deal of weight, I needed to replace that addiction with something more healthy.  I found knitting to be a good way to keep my hands busy and I was good enough at it from the start that I didn’t want to eat while knitting because I didn’t want to get food on my projects.  So for many months, I knit all the time and thought about what I wish I was eating.  That has stopped now, sometimes I have to tell myself to put down the knitting and go make something to eat.  So knitting has fully replaced the food addiction.  So instead of stocking my cupboards with my favorite foods, I stock my rooms with my favorite yarns.  Then when I want something sweet, or spicy, or salty, it is all there right in front of me with the potential to start a new project any time I feel the need.

The next element I have noticed may have more to do with buying than with knitting itself.  When I was with my ex husband, he kept us in such a state of financial insecurity that there were times we were left without the ability to buy milk, eggs, bread, diapers for the Bug, etc.  As he was often away at the times he did this, it was extremely stressful for me, the new mother with a developing severe lack of confidence.  I’d even go so far as to take out extra secretly and put it in a separate bank account so that I would have money for such things when the main account ran out.  Those were tough times.  And they really didn’t get easier for a long time after the separation and divorce.  After the first year of being without him I remember saying “What a difference a year makes!” regarding financial issues.  Life wasn’t by any means easy, and I was still running out of money on a regular basis trying to get all debt payed down, but I knew what was in my account and had control over it and could see the light at the end of the tunnel.  Just recently I thought about it again, “What a difference a year makes!” as I realized that money hasn’t run out at the end of the month in quite some time, even when unexpected car repairs or expenses have come up.

With my ex, I lived for a long time without indulgences for myself.  I didn’t buy new clothing, and didn’t have little luxuries except for the ones that the ex approved, which were more for himself and were often putting us into the poor financial spot we were in which made the indulgence have a stressful link as well.

But now, for the first time in a long time, I have a bit extra to spend on a few luxuries.  But the ones I buy mean MORE to me now than they ever had since I understand the true value of them.  And I want the luxuries I buy to last for awhile.  When I buy yarn, I know I am going to get a ton of entertainment out of it, and furthermore it is going to then be gifted to someone special or make something nice for me, which makes the whole project really worth it!  So seeing some yarn in my stash is like seeing better times and where my life was a few years ago compared to where it is now.  Sort of like going from redheart acrylic to wollmeise!

Scarcity

I am well aware that my posting has been scarce lately.  Mom came out for a 10 day visit which was fabulous!  Life just seems a little easier when she is there.  She really got my yard in shape since I have a combination of lack of motivation and fear of snakes stopping me.  Once she has it in shape I can maintain it just fine, but getting it to that point is something I can’t seem to bring myself to do.  She was saying that we should have taken before and after pictures, which I wholeheartedly agree with!

I took Mom to the airport on Friday afternoon then returned to work.  And then the excitement started!  I generally stay until 5 PM.  Around 4:45 my boss, who lives just down the street from me, came into the office and hurriedly said “The tornado sirens are going off and there is a big storm to the north of us, I don’t know about you but I like to get my daughter and get home when this happens, you are free to go too if you like.”  Well, I always like to leave early, and I like even better to be home when it storms.

Do you see where this is going?  Should I trademark the “I’ll just beat the storm” concept?  Because I always try it!

I run out of the office, run up to her school where she is already safely in the shelter with the other children, take her from the shelter all the while saying “Bug, now would be a really good time to listen to mommy and hurry!” while she obeyed perfectly with the background noise of tornado sirens.

We got home and I opened the car door to the first of the rain.  We got inside, I turned on the TV to see what was going on and started to shut windows.  At this time the wind was picking up and whooshing the tree’s around in a disturbing way.  The weatherman kept saying that this wasn’t a tornado but more like a hurricane with 100 MPH winds.  We didn’t even manage to get in the basement before it hit.  The winds were insane and it dropped golf ball sized hail.  The power flickered on and off, on and off until finally the weatherman was no more and we were left to our own devices.  I held Bug with her face to my chest under the arch between the living and dining room while she attempted to control her panic.  The whole thing was surreal and it happened so fast!  I think it was probably as fast as a tornado, it was there and then gone before we could comprehend what was going on.

And behind the wind and the hail was a rain storm that just pounded us.  I watched this out my front window.  The street in front of me turned into a river in which massive tree branches floated out toward the main road.  My sun curtain on my porch was shredded, and all the porch furniture was gone.

And then it was done!  The sky brightened and the cold front came through and all was clear.  The river in the road dissipated and we were left to survey the mess.  I grabbed a broom and got my shoes on.  What I really needed was a shovel for the front porch.  It was plastered with leaves and shreds of the sunshade.  I swept it all into a big pile, hung up the rug, and retrieved my porch furniture which had migrated to my lawn.  Bug just kept saying “What a MESS!  What a MESS!” and she was right.  She thought playing in the piles of hail was such fun though, I mean ice, on the ground, in the summer??!!  This has to be every child’s dream!  My neighbor came out to tell me that she saw my garbage can float down the river that was our road and figured hers had gone the same way, so we began to trek out to the main road to bring them back.  Indeed they made it all the way out onto the main drag.  On this trek we began to see how extensive the damage was.  I would say at least every other house had either large branches down or entire trees uprooted.  I live in a historic district so the trees there are mature and beautiful but also dangerously large.  Fences were pulled out and scattered about as well was every yard item you can imagine.  As we walked we returned the items if we knew where they belonged, and pulled the largest of the branches out of the road and onto the side.

At this point I was still hopeful that we might get our power back, as the city seems to be pretty good at keeping on top of things.  Then we meandered in the other direction.  I realized that the ONLY way to get out of our area, the only entrance and road clear of a full tree across it, was the way we just wandered.  And in the trees that were down we could see messy tangled power lines.  It was then I realized that it might be awhile.  We got in the car to turn the radio on and listen.  I realized that the entire city had been hit and it was safe to say that most were without power.  I tried to make phone calls but of course the networks were too busy.

In the end, we didn’t get power back until last evening.  And from surveying the damage I would say the city did a wonderful job, as I expected almost a full week.

The best moment of the weekend?  As I sat and listened to the local TV station on my radio in the car after the storm the newscaster gave us this little gem:

“At last update there were calculated to be 120,000 homes without power.  Compounding this and the clean up effort is that it is humid and getting hotter, and without power we don’t have  AC.  So I would suggest that everyone open up your windows and put a fan in the window.”

Buahahahahahaha!!!!

Hush Hush Handspun Hootinany

I have never joined a swap before. I have never bought yarn for someone else and sent it off in order to receive something else sight unseen. It sounds scary to me, and then to top it off I have heard various horror stories about what people received or perhaps they received nothing at all from a swap partner. Part of the reasoning is that I feel that I might BE the bad swap partner. What if what I send is not good enough? I don’t like that thought at all.

Then when I read about Hush Hush Handspun Hootinany I realized this was a swap I could get behind! The deal is that we send 4oz. spun fiber and 4 oz. roving to our partner. This sounds right up my alley so I jumped on board with very little hesitation.

Now I need to blog a questionnaire about myself for the person who will be sending to me. Here goes nothing!

1. How long have you been spinning? What skill level do you consider yourself?

I have been spinning for about 8 months now. It came easy to me. I would consider myself intermediate to advanced in basic spinning, but have not tried techniques such as long draw or any type of art yarns.

2. What kinds of yarn do you create (singles/2-ply/3-ply/art yarn)?

I’ve done some singles. Most of what I spin is 2-ply sock yarn. I have done quite a bit of navajo plying as well, since I think it is downright enjoyable. I have never spun art yarn nor have I done traditional 3 ply. I’ve never knit socks with my sock yarn either!

3. What do you spin with (spindle/wheel/both)?

I have a majacraft rose. I invested in her after buying a second hand ashford kiwi and falling in love with spinning. (And spinning fell in love with me!) I do not have my own spindle, and had never used one prior to purchasing my wheel. I did learn to spindle spin for a public speaking demonstration, and I enjoyed it quite a bit.

4. What are your favorite fibers to spin with? Anything you don’t like?

I like merino and merino blends very much. Spinning with silk is like a dream. I love slippery fibers and tend not to like the rougher wools very much. I also do not particularly like BFL. I cannot tell you why, and I know you will all think I am strange, but I have just not had the best of luck with it. This could, in part, be that I received low quality BFL or poorly prepared BFL, but at this point I might have a mind set against it.

5. Who are your favorite crack dealers fiber sources (etsy or otherwise)?

I have gotten most of my fiber from The Loopy Ewe but am perfectly willing to try something new.

6. What kind of fiber do you want to try?

I’ve always wanted to try some non blended silk or bamboo. I have also not tried many different wools other than merino, coopworth, and BFL.

7. Is there any techniques you would like to learn?

I’ve not done a traditional 3 ply yet, and I would like to get better with my laceweight.

8. Do you dye fiber? If not, would you like to learn?

I have done some koolaid dyeing and have ambitions to dye my own fiber but they have not yet been realized.

9. Do you have fiber prep tools (and like to use them) or would you prefer ready to spin fiber?

I have a pair of hand cards which have never been used. I just purchased them for some angora I was given. I cannot say if I will enjoy the process or not but I do believe I would prefer prepared fiber.

10. What do you do with your handspun? What projects have you completed?

Is it OK to say none here? Well that might not be entirely true. I did complete a pair of socks for my daughter out of my second handspun ever. I also completed a print o’the wave shawl out of my third handspun. I’d really like to make socks and lace out of handspun but have not done so yet.

11. Are you in need of any spinning gadgets (WPI Gauge, threading hook, etc)?

Heck yeah, I don’t have anything like that!

12. What colors “fall into your shopping basket”? Any colors you just can’t stand?

I love color! I want to be thinking out of the box on this one. I do not have colors which I do not like so I am safe with someone picking for me!

13. What is on your wheel/spindle right now?

I have 8 oz Blue Moon Fiber Arts merino in Ravenscroft colorway. I am completely in love with this fiber. It is prepared so nicely and drafts like a dream. I wanted something very subtle for socks for my dear friend Nick and this just seemed to work perfectly. The added advantage is that there will be enough for 2 pair!

14. What other crafts/hobbies do you have?

Well knitting of course, which is a bigger obsession for me than spinning. I enjoy reading and listening to audio books. I’d like to travel one day but for now my travels are kept within a small radius of my home. I love cooking Mediterranean food. I enjoy biking in the warmer weather. Why do I now feel like I am filling out a personal add?

15. Other than crafts, what are you passionate about?

I love to learn about different cultures. I tend to lean toward crunchy hippie gal who dreams of her own organic gardens even though I don’t appear it on the outside.

16. Do you have an online wishlist?

I have a Loopy Ewe wish list.

17. Is there anything that you collect?

Besides stash? Not so much.

18. Any books, yarns, needles or patterns out there you are dying to get your hands on? What magazine subscriptions do you have?

I have an interweave knits subscription. I am jonesing for both “A Gathering of Lace” and “Victorian Lace Today.” I work with only bamboo or wood needles. I would someday like the be in the presence of both Wollmeise and Numma Numma yarn. Me and thousands of others I suppose!

19. When is your birthday?

Dec. 9.

20. What book or movie character do you most resemble in personality?

Did you see Julia Roberts in Runaway Bride? Totally me!

21. What is the climate like where you live around this time (need to know for careful shipments of anything meltable)?

Feelin’ Hot Hot Hot!

22. Tell us one weird fact about yourself!

Didn’t I just do that with the Runaway Bride comment? OK OK, let’s try something else. I love process cooking. For instance, I make my own yogurt and whole wheat bread. Next on the list to learn is cheese. You will never see my home lacking in homemade yogurt. It just never happens. Or how about the fact that I do not like ice cream? That usually gets me some stares.

Favorites
favorite painting/picture(link):

Candy: I like dark chocolate. I really don’t like many other candies.

Food: I love hummus, tabbouleh, genuine falafel, lebnah, there are few middle eastern and Mediterranean foods I don’t like. I actually can’t think of any. I am also crazy for kraft 3 cheese mac and cheese, and I am not sure why. They must put something addicting in that stuff!

Drink: Well, I drink a lot of water, distilled water. I have always thought that water is the best tasting drink out there. Barring that I might have some nice dark coffee in various flavors or jasmine green tea. Also wine, I do like a nice glass of wine every once in awhile.

Movie(s): Well, I love independent and artsy films. My latests favorites are “Once” and “Before the Devil Knows You’re Dead.”

TV Show(s): There hasn’t been much that has captured my attention lately. I loved “Heroes” but the hiatus has been too long. “Lost” has lost me, much to my chagrin. I have been watching “Dr. Who” in dvd lately.

Book(s): One of my all time favorite books was Barbara Kingsolver’s “Animal Dreams.”

Guilty Pleasure(s): Fine dark chocolates. Also cheese. I am crazy over fine cheese.

GK clue 2

I think I can say that lace knitted in the round is equally as awesome as lace knitted any other way.  I chose chart C for this one, though D looked very tempting as well.

Progress

Now that the latest branching out scarf is done, we can get back to working on a few other ongoing projects.  And add a few new ones!

I’ve joined the Goddess Knits anniversary shawl knit along.  This is a round shawl with a mandala theme.  What I am enjoying the most about it is that the designer is giving us chart choices, so every shawl will look a bit different.

I am using jojoland harmony yarn which borders on a cobweb weight.  It was quite a challenge to start it, but I am getting a bit more used to it now.

This picture is through clue one. 

I have also started on a pair of Monkeys for a cousin whom I will see in August.  I am working on them as my work project and feel fairly confident they be done by then.

Yet another Branching Out scarf

Done again in Handmaiden Seasilk held double stranded throughout.  This one is a solid color which really features the pattern of the lace.  I love it!

Wicked Alien Baby

I have just listed 2 more handspun yarns on my etsy site.  Wicked and Alien Baby.

I have to admit even though the colors were way out of my comfort zone, I had a serious obsession with them, and spinning them was a blast!  The color saturation is wonderful and the silk makes spinning this an absolute dream.

I can imagine Alien Baby made into socks with alternating black strips.  I’d do it myself but I just can’t find the time!

Another unoriginal hat

All we are doing tonight is going up and down the basement stairs.  Tornado sirens stop and we come up just to get settled and hear them again.  Ridiculous.  Nothing is getting done tonight and I have more than enough to do!

Today at work I finished another cable hat.  This poor picture is of the back of my head.  You’ll just have to take my word for it that it is cute!

Disappointment

This weekend was the IA sheep and wool festival.  I had signed up for a class and was all set to go.  I intended to pick up hand cards for the lovely angora I received (remember this?) and perhaps some dyes.  I’ve been counting down the days.

But earlier this week we got a little heads up to check the website.  It could be the case that the fairgrounds would be under water due to all the flooding in IA.  We were told to keep checking back.  I checked the forecast there and noticed that they were indeed going to receive more rain in the next 3 days.  So I remained optimistic that perhaps the forecasts would be incorrect and the rivers would not swell to the point that they did.  First I read that the road to the fairgrounds had flooded, but my optimism barely waned.  In the end, last evening, I received a call from one of the planners indicating that they would have to cancel as the fairgrounds were under water.  And I was so sad.  Then I remembered that my silly sheep and wool festival cancellation is nothing compared to the people losing homes and crops to all this water.  I am very selfish.

On that note, anyone know how I can get to Estes Park, CO this weekend? 

Nick guest blogs again.

Shells:

It has been awhile since we have heard from Nick. I figured a bit of background on this post might be wise. When I started dating J, he introduced me to the yogurt making process and to Lebnah, which has become one of my all time favorite comfort foods. Bug is crazy over it too, and gets quite excited when I make yogurt as she knows what is coming. So for the past year, I have been attempting to get Nick to try it, as I know his tastes and I just knew he would love it. But he just wasn’t convinced. A year later he finally gets himself on a little health kick and decides to give it a try. Here we see the results of that. (Oh, and I must add, he is doing a shortened version, using plain yogurt rather than making his own yogurt)

ETA:  J would like me to inform you all that this is a traditional Lebanese dish.  I cannot figure out how I managed to forget to add that.  He very much enjoyed Nick’s post as it showed an American perspective on a traditional dish.

Nick:

Here’s a play by play on the Lebnah… Or as I jokingly call it Lebahaha…

Get a 2lb container of Stonyfield Farms organic yogurt (low fat) and a package of cheesecloth…

Get a bowl that’s larger than the amount of yogurt you have… Open up the cheese cloth and cut it so you have two layers lining the bowl overhanging by a good amount.

Plop the yogurt into the cheesecloth lined bowl. Rinse out the yogurt container for later.

Bunch up the cheesecloth and tie the top to make a hanging “ball”….

Now tie the other end to a cabinet handle so the ball dangles above the rim of the bowl that is sitting on your counter.

Now let it hang and drain overnight.

The next morning you’ll have a bowl with this lovely yellow liquid (whey, lots of protein, but I’m not sure how it could be used) and the “yogurt” will be about a third of its original size and the consistency of cream cheese.

Cut it out of the cheesecloth “package” and plop it back in the yogurt container with a teaspoon of kosher salt mixed in.

As G. Love and Spacial Sauce once said, Stick it in the fridge…

Toast up some pita triangles in the oven (10 mins at 300 deg should do it).

But 1^st brush them with olive oil and crack some pepper on them…

When you are ready to eat spoon some out on a flat plate and spread it out with the back of your spoon. Drizzle with good olive oil…

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm……

Escapades

Last evening I had a work event to go to with recently retired coworker.  I was to be her date.  I was quite excited about this and eager to wear this dress. That dress still looks absolutely fantastic and flatters in all the correct ways.  Actually, I have noticed that this designer does that for me in general.

I got to the event looking nice and looked around for recently retired coworker but could not find her.  I stopped to chat with another coworker.  I was standing by the soda bar when one of the waitstaff dropped a soda which immediately became shaken and unsealed, causing it to spin around in circles spraying soda in a 4 person radius.  It was quite extreme and I am sure that my eyes about popped out of my head at the thought of all that soda on my favorite dress ever!  Luckily, I’ve worked in catering and knew to immediately ask for a dry cleaning voucher.  She offered me a free drink but I insisted on the voucher.  They did take care of that with some expediency which was good.  I have a few other things to take to the cleaners anyhow so now is the perfect time to do so.

But it really got me thinking about all my time as a caterer and the wealth of stories I have of those times.  I thought I should probably try to document a few of them as far as I can remember them.  No, this will not be a week off type theme, but I will try to add them in as I get a chance.

I started catering when I went off to college as a work study program.  I was rather a nervous new college student but usually up for just about any adventure even if it scared me.

Now, the catering manager at the time was a woman who was…how shall we say…difficult and demanding to the extreme at that moment in her life.  I think she was always trying to prove something and therefore nothing anyone did was quite good enough.  If we weren’t fast enough or if we didn’t do things just as we were told to, she could get into quite a tirade.  We knew it and tried to avoid it as much as possible.  Compounding this was the fact that due to understaffing and lack of time there just wasn’t good training for the young students so we always felt that we were winging it somewhat.

It was my first fancier china reception, it took place in a nice lounge in the student center.  I and a group of students were working with the difficult manager.  This company did on average 14 events a day, and I know that it was a busy time of year.  We were, as usual, running behind.  This reception had hot food in chaffing dishes with the lit sterno’s underneath.  We had been setting the buffet up against the wall and had already lit the sterno’s and added the hot water to the chaffer pans when manager decided to check in on us.  She got a bit perturbed because we were running behind and also because we did not pull the buffet away from the wall in order to make it a double sided buffet.  We were asked to pick up the chaffers and the sterno’s and move the buffet.  That would have been fine, as the sternos were always set on upside down bread and butter plates, which perfectly housed the sterno making it stable.

There was only one problem.  Someone had used saucers instead of bread and butter plates, so rather than nestling comfortably on the bottom of the plate, the sterno was unsteady and could tip over.  I picked up the saucer and the lit sterno went flying.  It hit the carpet spreading flammable gel in a large arc, immediately starting the lounge on fire.  I was horrified but everyone else seemed in shock and no one was moving!  I decided to stomp it out to smother it.  Now the goo is stuck to my shoe and my shoe is on fire!  So I grab some extra linens to smother it, and the linens caught on fire.  In the end I grabbed a chaffing dish lid and covered the whole thing up smothering the flames.

Well, as is always the case with catering, the show must go on.  We quickly moved the buffet to a new position, covering the burns with the buffet tables.  Soon after I asked to be excused as I was shaking so hard and not really in the mood to try to circulate a cocktail tray full of food.  Manager was having none of this until one of the headwaiters stepped in and told her that she would most certainly take my spot if I could be left in the servery to calm down.  I happily folded napkins and polished silverware for the rest of my shift.

This experience, though extreme, was in the end a very fortunate event.  I went on to work my way up the ladder within the same company eventually becoming the manager myself.  I worked with countless new and inexperienced students who always managed to do something which they thought horrifying and embarrassing.  And I could always assure them that they should laugh over whatever it was, because no matter what they did, no matter how many trays they dropped, no matter how many glasses they broke, they had never burned the lounge like I did.  Whatever their current failure, mine was always worse!  It went a long way to creating student workers who were dedicated to their job and willing to learn.

The weekend

I think I’ll just go with a generic weekend summary today. I’ve a couple things to post but nothing earth shattering.

Bugs father called me recently and asked me if I was pregnant. My reaction was along the lines of “WHAT?!?!? NO WAY!!! Where did you hear that?

Apparently her dad had put her in a shirt that didn’t fit. He told her that they had to stop wearing it. She informed him that she intended to take it home because Mommy could use it for the new baby.

Um….she must know something I don’t know!

This weekend we went to the “scariest movie I never saw.” We went to see “The Strangers.” J had thought it would be a fantasy type thriller and I thought I could handle that. We did not expect it to be a horror film.

Initially he saw my reaction and said “It is just a movie….it’s just a movie!” Then he started realizing JUST how scary it was, pretty soon he is hanging onto my hand and saying “I am sorry sweetie, I didn’t expect it to be like this!”

Now by that time I’d had my eyes closed for awhile. I had no intention of watching a scary movie that would stick with me. I could tell by the music that it was a very effective scary movie, as well as the audience reaction. Actually, it is rather amusing to listen to everyone in the theater scream, including the guys, and repeatedly, when you are not actually watching the movie and aren’t that scared. Meanwhile J is still saying “Sweetie, sweetie, don’t open your eyes, just try to sleep or something.” How funny. I don’t think he will try to put me through that again.

I worked quite bit on my Kauni this weekend. I am bored of the current colors and am hoping for new ones to line up soon. I also worked a bit on the pomatamus sock and figured that I’d give a full repeat picture for posterities sake.

Francies are done

I absolutely adore these socks.  With the ribbing they cannot help but fit properly.  They are interesting in their construction and they were a great deal of fun to make.

I used jojoland melody yarn, which is supposed to have soft even color changes.  I am not sure what happened with the left sock, but I managed to run from red into blue in constructing the heel and then I ended up with a band of color change over the top of the foot.  Oddly, I am totally OK with that!

You’ve seen the tree like bottoms in another post so I didn’t take a picture of that.  I finished them at work today and I haven’t taken them off since.  I just adore this pattern!

Disturbing

This picture disturbs me somewhat.

Pomatamus mess

I picked out some Lorna’s Laces shepherd sock in color childsplay for my pomatamus knit along. I was so excited to use this bright summery yarn for the project, I thought it would look just plain fantastic!

I was not that lucky.

Yellow on one side

Pink on the other.

Not really the effect I was going for. And that color wasn’t moving! It was fully intending to pool like that for the leg of the sock. I looked up some pom projects on ravelry and it seemed like anyone using that colorway had the same issue. I think it has something to do with the fact that the pom sock has a 72 stitch leg rather than the typical 60-64.

I went back to the drawing board, I pulled out all my available sock yarns and photographed them. I asked some knitting peeps and decided on chameleon colorworks glacier moraine color.

Yep, that’ll do!

Heavy Lopi

My lite lopi is heavy! But progress has been made.

I have spun up all the yarn I have for this, and I am not convinced it will be enough, I may have to get more coopworth roving. But I do have a full sleeve attached and a second sleeve started.

I do hope that the rolled hem blocks down a bit, it is longer than it looks!

Yes I did finish a project

While I was busy thinking through various memories and blogging about them, I finished a project.

This is a branching out scarf, done in handmaiden sea silk held double throughout. I absolutely adore how it turned out, and blocking and ironing it after it was complete made the whole project shine!

Creating memories

So with all this talk of memories and roots and such things, I decided that I should spend some time with the Bug doing things that weren’t housework related.  It seems that there are so many things to get done that I often don’t just take her somewhere for fun.  She has been bugging me to go get ice cream, and since I don’t like ice cream and I don’t take her, I have resisted.  Well yesterday I decided we would go get us some ice cream.

Turns out that there was also an art show with vendors and live music where we went.  We got our ice cream, I even ordered some for me.  Bug had “blue with sprinkles” and I had some sort of brownie thing that I thought I could like.  Trouble is, I just don’t really like ice cream.  So I ate about 3 bites and saved the rest for her.  She ate all hers and then I offered mine.  Well she didn’t like mine!  Probably the lack of blueness to the ice cream turned her off.

We then wandered around the vendors and sat for a long time listening to the live music.  It was a nice afternoon!

I learned a lesson yesterday, if I leave my knitting needles on the couch, and Bug walks on them and breaks one, I am going to get a lecture.

“Bug, you broke one of mommy’s needles”

“Well Mommy, that is why you shouldn’t leave your knitting on the couch!”

“No Bug, that is why you should not WALK on mommy’s couch!”

In other news, I hit an all time low on my weight again today.  I haven’t been working at losing this year, because I just don’t feel like I need to.  I am down so far from last year that it just doesn’t seem necessary even though I could stand to lose more.  I noticed last week that my clothes seem to be more ill fitting than usual again, the pants that were previously large are literally falling off, so I thought perhaps I should step on the scale.  Lo and behold, all winter weight is gone and then some!  Of course, now I am inspired.

My own version of a scrap quilt

This has been a fantastic week of wandering through some of my memories and contemplating that which makes me who I am. Thank you for indulging me. There is something special about getting some of those thoughts down in journal form that makes me think perhaps I am tending some roots for The Bug.

As a wrap up, I have decided to show you something I have been playing around with this weekend. Let me assure you, I cannot quilt, and my sewing skills are sadly lacking. I don’t have fabric for scrap quilts nor do I have the expertise to make one. So I can only make something which would suit me.

I bring to you the mitered square scrap blanket. I will be using sock weight and fingering weight for this, and I will make it from all the many scraps I have been saving in the hope that they could be used somewhere.

Each color has its own story. Yes, I would take donations to speed up the project but only if they come with their own stories as well.

I am most thrilled to add bits and pieces of handspun, the large plum colored square is the leftover from favorite coworkers stole.

This is a long term project but I think it will be fun to see it come together as time passes.

Scraps

I have always had a love affair with scrap quilts. I just love to look at all the colors and fabrics and imagine where each may have come from. A scrap quilt invents a story in your mind, even if you do not know any of the fabrics personally.

Even better if you do! Looking at a scrap quilt and being able to identify the first projects of the pieces of fabric is a very centering way of admiring a quilt. And if someone close to you can identify them and pass along a story or a tidbit about a particular piece, it is a way of passing on history and wandering through your roots.

Scrap quilts make me think of my Nana. I was blessed to be around for 16 of her late years. I remember actively trying to wake up as soon as I heard her wandering about the house. This was often very early in the morning. I would tiptoe down the stairs hoping that no one else would wake up so I could have her all to myself. In both winter and summer the house seemed cool and comfortable in the early mornings. She would drink coffee and sometimes rock me in the rocking chair. I would ask her about things I did not know and she would tell me stories. I was somehow fascinated by her. I was fascinated with her hair and her skin. She never ever looked “old” to me, she just was.

She was rarely with idle hands, she did a lot of quilting and knitting. It was early on in my childhood when I found a love for yarn, through her. She would give me her scraps of yarn, the pieces left over, and she taught me to knit on my fingers. I remember also knitting a baby blue garter stitch scarf for awhile as well. If she was quilting, I was allowed to use the iron and iron her scraps. There was sort of a distinctive smell to them, a combination of starch and mustyness from the closet which was enhanced when I put the iron to the cloth.

She could tell me stories about her scrap quilts. She could tell me which piece was a handkerchief and which piece was a part of a dress and which was my PopPops old shirt.

My aunt tells me now that I knit like my Nana. I start too many projects, practice ADD knitting, yet somehow either get them done or get them frogged. It might annoy me about myself, but I couldn’t be happier about the correlation being made! You see, when I was a child, it did not occur to me that my Nana might have been human, held down by the various foibles of this world. To me, she was perfect. And if you lose that person at a young age, she continues to be that in your mind despite anything you might later hear. She goes on in my memory being just as she was when I was a child, and that is a wonderful gift. Just like a scrap quilt, those scraps of memories somehow center me.

Familial Roots

Can you consider your roots without considering your family?  I don’t think so.  I do understand that perhaps not everyone has family in the most traditional sense, but even those people find themselves family where it works best.

I am blessed with some of the best family around, I am convinced of it!  I think my brother and I and all my cousins tend to be happy, well adjusted, successful people not just because of our parents, but because of our family as a whole.

I wrote a bit about the “farm” in my trees post, but the farm was about ever so much more than just trees.  This is where the familial relationships took root and developed and were tended.  It seems a bit odd to say that this is where we “got to know each other” because it doesn’t seem that family gets to know each other like we do with other relationships in our lives.  But yet there is an element of that.

One of the reasons that having the “farm” sold was so incredibly difficult for me had nothing whatsoever to do with the land itself.  There was that element, as that place had become a symbol of happy and simpler times for my generation.  But that wasn’t all of it.  It had more to do with how the family relationships were tended to there.  The wide land gave us space and brought us together.  How could I not be emotional over such a thing as this?  How could we continue to tend the relationships that we planted there without the land?  And strangely, by the time the land was sold, we were not using it in the ways that I grew up with, it was a moot point, I just didn’t realize that at the time.

I am not saying that giving up that land was easy for me.  But what I realized over the next couple years was that my parents generation was not giving up on us as I had supposed.  They weren’t giving up on the relationships that took root there, it was just time to move them to another space.  In the years that the decision was made to give up the farm, and the years following the selling of it, I came to realize that I would receive more support than I could ever imagine from my parents generation and this would absolutely have nothing to do with where anyone was living at the time.

And now I see that we have yet another lovely and wonderful place where all these relationships come together and are cultivated.  There is another place that has come to represent all that the farm meant to me.  A place I long to be near even though I can only be there maybe once a year, and that longing has little to do with homes or the yards or the trees there, and everything to do with this strong desire to get back to my family relationships and harvest all the knowledge I can gain in the time I am there.  I feel wrapped in the comfort of strong people with strong opinions and wonderful intelligence whom I have known all my life.  I love to watch the generations, even the newest, sit together and play together and laugh heartily.  We have the opportunity to continue tending those relationships in a new place, and that is so precious to me.

So this is a great big hug and a thank you to my parents generation which has faithfully tended and supported and cared and infused knowledge and so many many more things on my generation of family.  We may not get the chance to say it, but we feel more confident and content and at peace than you even know, and this has everything to do with your hard work!

New Roots

I find that everywhere I go I am making new roots. To me, I find this to be one of the most stressful things to do. Yet if I look back on the places I have lived, it is the places where I actively cultivated friendships and developed ties to an area that I remember with the most fondness.

With all the turmoil that happened in my life around the time I moved to this city, some of that friendship development sort of got put on a back burner. It wasn’t that I failed to make friends, no, I did have various groups of supportive people around me, but except for my 2 favorite coworkers, none of them became particularly long term friendships.

This might be, in part, because I am a notoriously “bad” friend. I don’t call people on the phone. I often don’t return phone calls. I may not seek out blocks of time to spend with you, preferring the relative solitude of my own home. I will forget your birthday and your anniversary and your children’s birthdays. I won’t even send a card. See? I am kind of an unusual friend. Of course on the other hand, when we do spend time together, I will listen to your stories and I will remember them, I will give you my thoughts on a subject if you ask for them, and I will be supportive of your decisions even if they wouldn’t be what I chose to do. I will do my level best to not get defensive when you tell me something I don’t want to hear but is true. So there is some sort of disconnect between the the surface actions that make people feel special and the deeper actions of friends that some people find disconcerting about me.

About a year ago, I had the great privilege of meeting 4 other women around my age who all shared a common hobby with me. These 4 lovely women had know each other for awhile, yet they welcomed me in and I quickly felt a common bond even with all our collective uniqueness.  What I enjoy the most about them is that since each of them is confident and successful and has their own life, there is none of the neediness that has gone on in past friendships I have had.  Each is free to do their own thing and spend time together when warranted.

So now I get to put down some roots in this city where I am now and I get to enjoy and celebrate the good parts of life with 4 women whom I admire and respect.

One of these gals wrote a wonderful roots themed post which I loved and thought was very astute.  Enjoy, if you will, Not your grandma’s theology, from Square Peg in a Round Hole.

And I must add, I am finding it desperately difficult not to post knitting content.  I feel that you are all in for it when this week is up!

Dye Day

The order that I helped with is up at the loopy ewe.  2 pages start here.

Trees and Roots

When I first saw the pattern for the Francie sock, I was immediately drawn to it as a pattern.  I instantaneously wanted to knit them for J because it seems that all his childhood memories (at least the ones he chooses to share) are tree related.  He talks of olive orchards and olive trees thousands of years old, which is awfully hard for this American gal to even comprehend.  He remembers climbing lemon trees to get not quite ripe lemons to share with his sister as a nice hot summer treat.  And he speaks of drinking tea underneath jasmine trees in full bloom.  His tree related memories paint such a beautiful picture of his country that it makes me think that it should be a little piece of heaven on earth.

Then I began to think about why his tree related memories connect with me.  If we don’t have the shared love of trees, then would I connect so well with his stories?

So I got to thinking about my own tree related memories.  I thought about the “farm” where I grew up.  I remembered the “pines” where hemlock trees made a cool copse even on the hottest days of summer.  The hemlock needles created a soft carpet over the ground and there was a stream running through the middle of it all.  Many days were spent there in all fashion of play and rest, with family and in solitude.

Or the tree on the hill where there was tied a massive rope which dad brought home from the navy (I think this was the case, correct me if I am wrong dad!)  We grew up swinging on that rope, pushing each other and eventually growing old enough and adventurous enough to climb into a nearby tree and swing out of it on the rope.  All the while listening for the cowbell that indicated lunch or dinner time when we would run sure footed back down the hill and to the house.

We didn’t live on the “farm” for long but we went back often, so many memories were made there.

How about the cherry tree that I used to climb with a book when wanting a bit of solitude during my young teen years?

And I’ll never forget the deep sadness I had when they tore up the trees that lined main street in the small village I lived in to make room for wider roads and “progress.”  I walked to and from school under those trees and it was the first realization I had that things happened that I didn’t like whatsoever and I had no control over them.  An awakening of youth perhaps.  I was maybe in 4th grade?

It is clear to me why we use the term “roots” to describe the collection of our own memories and the stories of our ancestors.  For me, trees have very tangible memories attached to them, and somehow I feel that connection with J even though we grew up in different places, times, and cultures.

With this in mind, I am interested in hearing your “trees make roots” stories, if J and I could connect this way, surely there are more stories to share!  I know I have a fairly diverse group reading and I am wondering just how able we will be to write down some of our favorite memories.

Also, if you really don’t have tree related memories, I want to hear that too!  In fact, I want to know what you might find to be the equivalent connector for you.  What is it in nature, or not in nature, that you associate your best memories with?

A knitblog week off

So here is the deal, I’ve been pondering a couple things quite a bit this past week, and I have decided to take a week off from posting knitting related content here.  (With the exception of the loopy ewe sneak up providing it contains the yarn I helped dye so I can link to it.)

Instead, we are going to have a roots themed week at Suzy Sells.  I’ll post some things that have been on my mind, and I may just ask from stories from readers as well.

So bear with me as we explore some of the things that make us who we are this week!  I am rather excited to play around with these reflections and I hope that you will also enjoy the journey.

Wanna see something?

I’ve begun the lite lopi sleeve, and added corresponding colorwork to it.  The rest will be plain coopworth, but I am stretching it as far as it will go.

To be honest, I am not sure how much I like it and I may rip it back and just do plain coopworth, I have yet to decide.

I also started the icarus shawl.

Mmmmm….malabrigo

So I have, thus far, avoided the malabrigo craze.  I’ve drooled over it at my favorite LYS, but just haven’t decided to pick any up.  Yes, it is soft and yummy, but it was one of those yarns that I kept saying “eventually.”

J is coming home on Sunday.  I wanted to have a little more for him than a pair of socks.  I had bought him something else online, but when it arrived it became clear it wouldn’t work as a gift so I sent it back.  I thought perhaps I could finish the francies for him, but that would be a lot of uninterrupted knitting and I have spinning to do and regular life to attend to this weekend.  Clearly I was going to have to come up with something else.

I ran across the unoriginal hat by yarn harlot.  I considered it, weighed the fact that it was a chunky yarn and would knit up quickly against the fact that I would have to revamp the project to fit his head.  I decided to run into my LYS and see what they had.

I walked out with malabrigo chunky, 2 skeins of the same color in case it took more than anticipated to knit the hat with my modifications.  Low and behold it was on sale!  I totally wasn’t expecting that.  Apparently I chose a discontinued colorway.

I knit the hat last night.

I added another cable repeat to it and it should fit just fine.  I love it, looks great on me too.

So today the Bug and I ran errands.  We went to the auto parts store and got a headlight and airfilter, she watched, enchanted, as the service guy installed the headlight.  We went to the library to return books, then down to the farmers market.  We bought honey and tomatoes and the BIGGEST BEST green onions you ever did see.  Then I got the brilliant idea to exchange the second skein of yarn for another discontinued colorway, so that the hat I had decided to make for myself would not match J’s hat, because we just aren’t cutesy like that.

I came home with this

And little miss Bug who is as bad a yarnie as I am fell in love with both the koigu and the malabrigo.  I swear, I did not lead her to these yarns myself, but instead just lead her away from the “sparkley” yarns.

She picked out a little something for a hat for herself.  She also wants a headband.  I am thinking I can modify the chunky hat pattern to accommodate her head, and then also make some variation on the calorimetry to fit her.

She was so excited about the yarns that she swifted them all by herself.  I swear she never finishes an entire skein when she swifts, but today she was unstoppable!

My favorite LYS owner is quite awesome to btw, he reads to Bug if there aren’t customers in the store, he knows what I like and leads me to new things that I might be interested in, and as I asked the cashier if she could look up which colors were discontinued so that I could trade skeins, he quickly stepped in to let me know that I could choose any of them for that price, even though they weren’t all being offered for that price.  “She’s a great customer” he told the cashier.

I suppose all this means is that he is a good salesman, which I knew, but he has an absolutely wonderful knack for making everyone feel special in his store, and that knack rubs off on the other workers, making for a wonderful LYS experience!

Francie sock #1

I finished the francie sock and started on the second sock.  I am completely pleased with how it turned out, the yarn is lovely, the pattern interesting and stunning.  The one suggestion I have for knitting this sock is that it looks deceivingly long as you are knitting it.  Do not concern yourself, it all comes together at the toe!

Lemon Yellow

The final lite lopi color is completely spun.

Spinning this gave me areas of yellow with areas of cream, reminding me of the inside of my moms homemade cream puffs.  What a great memory to have with me as I spun!

So all 4 colors together look nice, the green and the yellow are quite bright with the red and the orange being more toned down colors.  I think it is a good contrast.  I can’t wait to get started on some of the colorwork!

Socks in trees

Finished J’s socks today.  I am fairly certain that it wouldn’t have happened today except that we had a long meeting at work where I could knit under the table.

Duet middi sock yarn, which I adore.  Makes for a very nice hefty pair of socks.  I made them quite wide so I think they really will fit his feet.